CAMINO JOURNAL by Maryanna Gabriel
Dear Diary…
“If I really am doing the Camino, I need to spend the next section of the year focusing on walking. xo ”
February 27, 2017
“I get it. I get the whole thing now. I keep waiting for a sign. It hasn’t been like that at all. More a snowball effect, a gathering of energy to the point where momentum has built up and then one is on the train joining the troops, when one doesn’t remember consciously enlisting.” xo
March 2, 2017
I feel a quiet happiness this morning. Truly. I was just running through my head in the last few days that I was peaceful, content, sometimes joyful, but not happy. Just memories of it. I would say this morning this is definitely not true. It is a quiet kind of happiness that is quite lovely… I stared to feel better about things, not so worried about the Camino, now that I have made arrangements for the first week…. xo
“I have a lot I am juggling but if I just keep focusing on
what needs to happen next, rather than feeling overwhelmed, it will help me to move forward. ”
“I am just roaring along here. Already I have made a quick recovery from spilling half a can of paint on the kitchen floor, partially encompassing a Persian rug....I have to get walking. ”
April 15, 2017
I take my dream as a warning about the Camino as I try to work out if what I am taking is adequate. I have already lost a passport when travelling, and trust me, I do not wish to repeat the experience. Somehow I feel I have linked the future which is the Camino, with the past, and my unconscious is trying to tell me something. xo
May 8, 2017
The trek is very expensive. Yesterday I made more headway with travel arrangements. I need to sit down and work things out thoughtfully. My immediate instinct when my eyes fly open in the morning is to walk. xo
“It is with some effort I sit and write as I am wanting very much to bolt hither and thither like a frightened rabbit.
Oh the burden of being mortal.”
June 11, 2017
I told some friends what I was doing and they wanted to hear all about the Camino. Their support and excitement was wonderful. I held onto that feeling all day, a warmth close to my heart…. have come up with a left knee issue. The sensible thing to do is rest - then try things out a little more slowly, shorter distances without a pack and if that is alright, increase the challenge. The fact is, I might not be able to make it. So let’s just see if my knee can heal. I keep seeing the Camino, the flashes of sunlight, the places, the stone work. Maybe this means the knee is a temporary glitch. xo
